Monday, August 29, 2011

I need to remind myself,

I am not the center of the Universe. The center of the Universe is within me.

I need to treat others as I would like to be treated. (original, huh?)

To smile more and more.

To always find the positive, regardless how daunting it may seem.

To not push away those that mean the world to me in fear I may lose them.

To not always have to carry others, and trust that sometimes (someone) can carry me.

Trust.

Accepting when ya got something good. And boy, I really, really got something good.

Here's to honesty within ourselves, lets keep going on with this experience.




Sunday, August 7, 2011

Yesterday I had the pleasure of snuggling in bed and conversating with one of my favorite people on Earth. For a few hours I belly laughed and cried, learned and loved. I exist in a Loving Life.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

buggy love.

excuse me, (for my two month hiatus)


the past two months I've been in a state of delirium. Composed mostly of growing, procrastinating, dreaming, denial, excitement, sadness, with a dash of laughter all in between. I've found that although I was me these past two months, I wasn't exactly present.

Its hard to explain.

I've found that when I incur stress in my Life, to others I seem to handle it well, but in all
truth- not really, really.

When I stress I hold value to things that give me immediate gratification. Which is a catch for me because of the following examples:
my awesome way of dealing with planning my upcoming semester.
(meaning I haven't yet, I am known to wait til the last minute. Literally. The. Last. Minute.)

My crazy beautiful relationship with the Man that I will spend the rest of my Life with. The catch? We have about five states in between us for now.

I try to stay balanced but this Summer was different for me. I almost relished in the recklessness of it. I put off things that were important and obsessed over situations that were extremely silly. But I also danced in the rain, fell out of a canoe and saw about a million stars.
(But that is for another story time.)

So I ask to be excused. I woke up today in a state of excitement and also with a ball of stress that was bouncing around in my tummy. I am basically excusing myself for not doing all of the things I should have accomplished this Summer of Haze. But then I think, this is me. This is just who I am. I am back in the present.

And to be a Gift to others, you must be Present.