Focus.

Back into yoga.

"Breathe through the back of your heart, that is where your Happiness is."-Cara, fellow yogini.

I won't ever give up on you.

So, I woke up this morning on the floor with a pillow, blanket and books all around me. (and a finished bottle of wine.) In a daze I looked around and I immediately started smiling. All the things I should and am thankful for just flowed into my brain. It reminded me of the Sweet Valley High series I read as a teenager. When I was about 15 I read the best advice I could ever get. Elizabeth Wakefield (my favorite character in the series) said,"Every time I get in the shower, I say 10 things I am thankful for, every morning." Ever since then I have followed this. And I have forgotten I do it still. Everyday. It has become a habit.

Try it.

our future treehouse.

Erik promised me today that he will build us a treehouse. I'm a lucky girl.

cheers,

to new jobs and new beginnings.

I met sadness and relief today. Crazy combo. I can never not be thankful. I feel silly for my selfishness when I don't need to take, I need to give, always.

blue.

I quit television 3 years ago. (to stand up for reading books, playing outside, living, etc.)

BUT-

I have a laptop.

I've been sucked into the Netflix Abyss and watching any documentary I can. I realized this morning that,

a) documentaries are not bad. Reality television is.

b) I've been feeling pretty blue lately.

I know that jumping into 'watching a screen' is a red flag when that isn't really me. What is interesting is although I have been very sad this week over reasons that overwhelm and confuse me, Netflix taught me something. Crazy, I know. This week in a film I heard something I really needed. "If I were to choose between happiness and sorrow, I would chose sorrow. Because when you are happy you know not of what you are missing. But when you are full of sorrow you know everything." Katherine of Aragon.

I know this aching heart will pass. Like everything in this world. And the best way to keep a smile on my face is to know that I have so much to be thankful for. I'm silly to think the world is crashing- when its basically opening up to me.